And then nothing much on it lol.

Well, I haven’t been all that active that’s true and I don’t have a lot to show for this hidden activity. I have just been following the same usual beat for the time being. And finding new distractions though I really need to crack my knuckles on a few things and get moving.

I get myself excited with a dream to follow and then spend most of the time chasing smoke and mirrors, beating myself down. I am my worst enemy without true direction or plan. Keep making promises finding a lack of resource to follow through.

Sometimes it feels like I’m three or four different people per say, trapped, chained and sealed to the same fate. Which one I’d rather be, I don’t know, so we all suffer.

So I’ve been trying to make it through class, but I’m not sure how well I’ll do – not so good so far but I’m making it. Until I can figure out that one thing there’ll be a few years of personal work if I’d want a chance still. I’m an idiot, but I’d be nothing if I didn’t chase my dreams.

Well I promised not to make the entries too big, so I’ll keep that one at least. There’ll be another soon when I have collected my thoughts.

“Just waiting
To turn your tears to roses”