And then nothing much on it lol.

Well, I haven’t been all that active that’s true and I don’t have a lot to show for this hidden activity. I have just been following the same usual beat for the time being. And finding new distractions though I really need to crack my knuckles on a few things and get moving.

I get myself excited with a dream to follow and then spend most of the time chasing smoke and mirrors, beating myself down. I am my worst enemy without true direction or plan. Keep making promises finding a lack of resource to follow through.

Sometimes it feels like I’m three or four different people per say, trapped, chained and sealed to the same fate. Which one I’d rather be, I don’t know, so we all suffer.

So I’ve been trying to make it through class, but I’m not sure how well I’ll do – not so good so far but I’m making it. Until I can figure out that one thing there’ll be a few years of personal work if I’d want a chance still. I’m an idiot, but I’d be nothing if I didn’t chase my dreams.

Well I promised not to make the entries too big, so I’ll keep that one at least. There’ll be another soon when I have collected my thoughts.

“Just waiting
To turn your tears to roses”

It's bee a long time since I've done anything here. Quite a long time, I guess in a way that might hint at a few things that I'll discuss later. But yeah, I have to gather my thoughts and figure out how many journals to write if I'll do more than just one lol.

I've been mostly well though I haven't looked after myself to any great standard lately >.> but getting by. I'll try not to make the up coming journals too big xD;

Well yeah I'm still here.

Class is done and over for the year and it seems I managed to pass. All resubmissions came back with competent ungraded passes and I haven't heard CIT screaming at me again yet. So things seem fine.

I was sick yesterday, and I still am. Called in sick to work and they want a doctors certificate for a non injury sickness and without checking my sick leave status. Which was odd, my colleges thought it was stupid as well as we get 2 unexplained sick leave allowances a year or something to that effect. And considering it wasn't an injury, I rang the office today to find out if I'd really need one, turns out their sick leave applications are high right now and so are requesting doctors certificates from anyone. I got put for sick leave anyway but was told to get a certificate for the next time.

It costs us to get those certificates.

I'm not happy.

I'm going to work tonight, even though I'm still sick.

Things to do:
Practice art
Practice 3d modelling
Do Iso's picture I promised

and... stuff I forget. xD